所以什么叫做勇敢,什么叫做爱,和姐姐在一起是勇敢,和姐姐在一起叫爱,和姐姐分手旅行后还在一起,可能就是傻了,我不想耽误姐姐,姐姐,以后还会有自己的生活,自己的世界,我有我自己的生活,我自己的世界,我不想去打乱姐姐对未来的规划,虽然我很想和姐姐在一起,我们两个人的世界,并成一个世界,但是我认为还是算了吧,也许真的是太爱了,才不希望打扰她的世界,也许我会后悔,不过我认为这是最好的选择。
想了很久,已经早上六点了,天空已经有点亮了,我也要去跑步了,跑完步回来洗个澡,差不多八点左右,刚好叫姐姐起床吃饭,以前在队里的时候经常跑步,现在不在队了,运动就变少了,不过这也是忘记烦恼的一种方法,有的时候跑步的时候听一首自己喜欢的歌,会开心很多,而且我喜欢那种自由自在的感觉,而且跑步的时候,我的思维会变得很冷静,也有助于我思考,今天已经思考的够多了,下午还要去电视台对词,还需要再思考一点,其实以前在没遇到姐姐之前,觉得世界上大多的事情都是灰暗的,没有那么多快乐而言,我是遇到姐姐之后,感觉世界上大多事情都是快乐的,没有那么多伤而言,确实啊,其实分手旅行大多数都是快乐的,我不想写一些悲伤的,这人世间已经够苦了,我希望我们都甜点。
跑的这条我早已跑过无数遍的道上,我已经习惯了在沈阳的每天早上来一遍有氧运动,看着生机勃勃的孩子们上学,真希望他们能开开心心的生活,没有那么勾心斗角,校园里的足球场,着实是让我又想踢球了,但是没办法,现在已经告别足球场很长时间了,其实从小到大都跟足球相伴,它早就已经融入了我的生命,其实很多人问我,如果重来一次,你还会选择足球吗?我的回答都是说实话,我现在已经恨透了足球,恨透了足球带给我的一切,不过重来一次,我还是会选择它。
手机里播放着的是《elliott's song》是亢奋第二季第八集的一个插曲,这首歌其实象征着女主此刻已经救赎的人生,他们还未满18,是人生中最毫无顾忌的年代,其实当时我18的时候,我活的真的是条条框框的,每天都被管的特别严,我多么希望可以像他们一样自由自在,无忧无虑的冲动的活着,不过已经没什么机会啦。
“I've got no place,Buildin' you a rocket up to outer space,I watch you fade,Keeping the lights on in this forsaken place,Little star,Feels like you fell right on my head,Gave you away to the wind,I hope it was worth it in the end,You and my guitar,I think you may be my only friend,I gave it all to see you shine again,I hope it was worth it in the end,Us against the world,Just a couplesinner'smakin' fun of hell,If I keep you here,I'll only be doing this for myself,Little star,Feels like you fell right on my head,Gave you away to the wind,I hope it was worth it in the end,Yeah, I hope so,Think you may be my only friend,I gavЕ it all to see you shine again,I hope it was worth it in the end,I know this thing is broken,So I leave my door wide open,Been some time sincewe've spoken,One day we'll meet again,Some distance whenyou're older,You'll e lean on my shoulder,Tell me that storm is over,That day we meet again,Feels like you fell right on my head,Gave you away to the wind,I hope it was worth it in the end,You and my guitar,I think you may be my only friend,I gave you away Mh- mhhm- hmm